Life and What I think about it?

Well, I’ve been caught up with so many things lately. Life is pretty boring I would say but I’ve been up to something for 3 weeks. I will officially call myself a work out freak for real 😀

Working out makes me feel good about my entire self. I feel more positive and confident about my entire being. Physically yes, emotionally checked and yes when you’re into something good for yourself, you wouldn’t spend much time looking back into your ugly past and by that I also mean, looking back into your ugly self.

I’m sure everyone has their ugly sides and truth is, we all make mistakes in our lives. It could be one time mistake or it could be more than that, minor ones, major ones.

And guess what? I’ve discovered something different about myself few weeks ago, I’m not afraid to admit my mistakes, I have screwed up in the past, I’ve hurt people’s feelings be it intentionally or unintentionally. There are times where I feel extremely inhuman about myself. I guess that’s humanity, by feeling inhuman about yourself makes you more human because you know what you did was bad and yeah, mistakes are meant not to be repeated. 🙂

One thing I realise,

Friends, well sometimes your close friends, without them realizing they sometimes say things they don’t mean it, oh u can call me a sensitive being, well, i am one, depending on my mood on that day. I’ve lost my confidence, been indulged with the fear I’ve been creating deep inside myself because of whatever people say, I put it into my head. But God never failed to pull me out of it. It happened each time when I stand tall and strong, something just pull me back into the box of fear I’ve created myself. So much for telling yourself that you shouldn’t bother about what others say about you. haha. We are human yeah? Just admit it, whatever people say about you will seriously affect your entire self sometimes. From feeling so good about yourself, you can feel nothing at all in mere seconds.

We as humans, no matter how positive we are, we will sometimes fall. It’s not wrong to be emotional. One thing I’ve discovered about being emotional when you’re feeling so stressed out and lonely is, you tend to look back and dig back into your past, find those mistakes and imagine if you’ve never made those mistakes. I’m not joking about this, but by reminiscing about those events makes me feel better some times. At least I know what I’ve done and what are the things I shouldn’t do in the near future if I were to be faced with the same situation again.

Never ever regret your past, it is your past that defines who you are today. I’m proud to say that I have someone I can rely on, someone I can clung onto whenever I feel horrible about myself. He makes me feel whole and hopeful again each time I reflect on those ugly moments, each time I reflect on my glorious moments. I thank him for those moments be it good or bad because I know it all happened for a good reason. That one person I can rely on always and forever is Him, Jesus.

I couldn’t imagine my life without him seriously. I wouldn’t have this kind of perspective in life, I wouldn’t be able to even live a pleasing and human life in the eyes of people. You never know how bad of a person I was in the past. I repay violence with violence, I did lots of nasty stuff when I was younger. Been mistreated and been feeling so horrible about myself. If I didn’t surrender myself to Jesus, I wonder what I’ll be now. I wonder..           I guess it’s best not to wonder about it. Because I am what I am now. 🙂

Talking about college, I’m worried about everything but I’ll just take some time off for today. Will do the catching up part tomorrow. I’m looking forward to go over to somewhere to get a degree and if it is of God’s will, I will be there in 2 years time. See how things go. =)

 

More updates soon.

Not so soon though.

🙂

God bless.

 

At the Foot of the Cross

When life gets hard, when you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, when you feel alone… Just remember that Jesus received more judgement than we ever will, Jesus hung on the cross & shed blood for us so we could live. Jesus knows & understand everything you are going through. You are loved & you are not alone.

Hope & have faith that when it’s hard, IT WILL GET BETTER! 🙂 – Arden Cho

 

When life hits you hard, don’t be afraid to fall, because when you fall and get back up again, u’re stronger than before. Jesus was there to pick me up when I nearly fell, or maybe I did fall but I was afraid to land on the ground since I held onto something so tightly. I’m not afraid to admit it but yes I didn’t wanna let it go but well, it feels really good to let it go and to just allow myself to fall flat into the arms of Jesus once again. Thank you Jesus.

I thank you Jesus for lifting me up when I am at my lowest. Now that I’ve got the determination, courage and strength, I’m a much better person on the inside.  And yeah I’m not joking, I’m stronger now, indeed stronger than ever and I couldn’t thank Jesus enough for that 😉

Thank You from the bottom of my heart. #grateful

When life gives you chicken, you just gotta marinate it, barbecue it and eat it up yea? 😛

 

Banana leaf’s rice

Last night me and this awesomely random bestie of mine (who calls ppl out to accompany her for food whenever she feels like it-lol)

We headed over to Bangsar and had our Banana leaf’s rice @ Sri Nirvana. To me it was only okay, as for Say Yie it was superb. Don’t blame her yea? It was her first try 😛

I’ll let the pictures speak to you
😉

We ordered Kambing Masala, Ikan goreng, and ayam goreng.

The rest are the side dishes of the day.

Fried Chicken (  it was merely acceptable, I’ve eaten better ones )

Kambing Masala 

Mango lassi ( Brickfields’ ones are way better!) 

😀

 Average price per person is RM 23-25

Say Yie didn’t snap an awesome picture of herself so it’s only me here.

😀

 

With the insanely insane woman

Went out for lunch @ my favourite Dessert shop: Sweetheart’s Dessert, Mahkota Cheras with the awesomely insane woman, Samantha Yong. Guess what? She nearly killed me in the car when she intentionally stepped on her break pedal really hard ( her so called ‘little surprise’ for first riders in her car) Lol. It was my first ride from her btw so it really did scare the crap outta me. (-_-“)

Anyway, woman we’ve got lots of catching ups to do. The insanely insane friend of mine here doesn’t talk as much as she does in the past. 😛 but we did have fun even though the time we spent was short.

😉

A must to try: Nasi Lemak (Nyonya Style)

Fruit tart and what’s your name softy? (Sorry, I don’t remember)

Gotta love these.

Beware of her little surprise

😛

 

Food makes me happy

Today, me and one of my besties, Say Yie went all the way to Bangsar for bacon at Antipodean for dinner. The bacon was the most amazing thing. 😀

The place is very cozy and it looks amazing even though it was a little warm. 🙂 After dinner we headed over to Midvalley for snowflakes again. ( FYI we had the same thing last night before our movie)

Baby, I know we are addicted to snowflakes’ bestseller. If you haven’t tried their bestseller’s, you better do so. 😀

Say Yie

You-Know-Who

😛

Bacon-What’s your name? ( I don’t remember, 😀 )

Breakfast sets are served from 8am-10pm

so you can have breakfast at this place, whenever you want. 

😉

*YUMS*

*two thumbs up for their servings*

It wasn’t that pricey,

RM25-RM30 should be enough per person depending on what you order.

😉

 

Gotta Keep Moving Forward

Had an awesome time with Say Yie and Ee Ling today. Spent most of the time talking to Say Yie about some crazy stuff. Met up with Ee Ling and her hubs for movie, watched Real Steel, ya’all gotta TRUST ME, it is a must to watch 😉 Well, that movie totally wow-ed me. Like seriously. ;O

And yes, thank you Say Yie Babe for the awesome time and do remember what we’ve talked about in the car.

We mustn’t get too carried away with our thoughts. Get it? 😉

It’s okay to be afraid to face the fact that sometimes, we do get disappointed and hurt for no valid reasons. It’s okay 😉 

We just need to know what’s best for us. If it’s meant for us, it will be.

If not, there’s no point chasing after a lost shadow.

Let us have fun for now. 😉

Yeap we’ll be friends

*sings until the die I die!*

😛

 

Thank you bestie

Ee Ling Yeah is truly an amazing friend. Thank you for hearing all my nonsense crap and thank you so much for the belated birthday celebration.

A true friend is indeed needed when you’re going through a really bad time of your life.

She’s that kind of friend where you can be completely comfortable with just being random and crappy. I guess it’s our norm. 😀 you know that kind of friend where even after weeks and months of not seeing each other we can still laugh and be extremely crazy and lame.

Awkwardness doesn’t seem to bother us. 🙂

I realized that people can’t live without companions and friends. Prove me wrong. 😛

I’m sorry if I’ve been emotional these days. Trust me, most of the only child faces the same problem. Sad to say but yes, we have got noone to turn to most of the time. There will even be times where we are sick of trying to turn to someone.

Family is the best source to turn to I guess. I wish to have one elder sister&brother. Neways, I shall stop imagining the impossible. I guess God has a valid reason for me being the only child in my family.

🙂

Dear friend,

Thank you again for the time last night.

It was much needed&much appreciated.

 

10th October

10th of October was my birthday. So Monday it was.. Yeah.. My birth day.. my mum gave birth to me on this very day and I can’t thank my mum enough for bringing me into this world.

I always believe that there’s a very reason why I was born into this world.

Thanked Jesus for adding another year into my life even though part of me doesn’t feel like living anymore sometimes. Lol. It happens you know, you just feel like sleeping and sleeping without doing anything at all. Been through that&done that. Anyway, I shall stop yapping, I’ve completely turned 19 and I’m going to turn 20 SOON.

And yes! I had fun on the 10th, thanks to my classmates who spent their time, and energy to make it a great one. Truly, they are a bunch of great people! They made me felt so blessed and appreciated for the first time. 😀

That’s it for my 19th birthday.
And yeah, I’m officially 19.
🙂

 

What goes around, comes around

Hello readers,

What goes around, comes back around a.k.a karma is a very interesting subject and a little sensitive topic I’ll be touching on today. But well, something happened yesterday and it opened up my eyes to reflect on things from the past. I’m not going to preach but I’ll be touching on few verses from the bible. It’s worth the read if you wanna know what happened to me yesterday. Yesterday was a break through and I thank God for it 🙂 It was such an eye-opener, whatever happened yesterday.. was an eye-opener to me.

Do you believe in karma? Honestly, I do.. as I believe what goes around, comes back around.

The bible touched a lot on this matter and I’ll list down a few from Luke Chapter 6

Love your Enemies

27 “But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. 28 Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, offer the other cheek also. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also. 30 Give to anyone who asks; and when things are taken away from you, don’t try to get them back. 31 Do to others as you would like them to do to you.

Do Not Judge Others
37“Do not judge others, and you will not
be judged. Do not condemn others, or it will all come back against you.Forgive others, and you will be forgiven.

The bible touched a lot on this matter. And truth be told, in the past, I did hurt people and obviously i didn’t do it intentionally. I’m not happy about it and it kills me just to reflect on it. Who doesn’t right? Feeling all so guilty and bad, it’s a normal thing I guess. 😦

I know someday, it will get back to me, you know, whatever I’ve done to people in the past, it will eventually come back to me. And yeah, it did come back to me yesterday. I realised that I did the exact same thing that one person did to me yesterday to someone in the past. I won’t take credit for whatever I’ve done, instead I feel sorry for that person. I truly am.. The only thing I can do is to hope that God will forgive me and that one person will forgive me as well.

Most importantly, you need to forgive yourself and stop feeling bad and guilty about it. I’m not asking you to feel superbly ‘cool’ about the whole thing, obviously you’ll be feeling extremely guilty and etc but don’t blame yourself for everything& carry that very burden while you continue to live with that very burden for the rest of your life. Learn to let it go and ask that one person for forgiveness whenever you’re ready to do so. It helps not only you, but it helps others to see something different in you. Trust me, it helps to ease whatsoever burden you’ve been carrying for days, weeks, months and sometimes it could last up till years.

Nobody is perfect by the way. 😉 it happens and don’t blame yourself and other people for it.

Guess what’s the silly part? 😛 Well, I’m being very thankful for it, I know it’s absurd and silly to be thankful for such things but I truly am because it taught me an important lesson.

Life is all about falling into imperfections and learning how to transform those imperfections into something beautiful. It teaches you how to be kind, sincere, and forgiving toward others. It’s hard I know and sometimes, when you’re being put into certain situations in life.. it’s almost impossible to not be ‘the bad person’ if you know what I mean 😉 I guess it does make sense to you, doesn’t it? 🙂 Sometimes you ought to be bad and might even pretend that you’re actually a nice person on the outside when deep down, you know that you’ve done something you should be feeling extremely guilty about.

As a matter of fact, we as humans we tend to be angry at certain people and things for some reasons and worse, there are times we tend to vent our rage and disappointments for no apparent reason, like seriously. It happened to me countless times and I bet it happens to you too.

Sad to say this, it happens. Yeah it does.. shit happens. 😉 I guess the best solution to this is to simply learn how to suck everything in and turn to God instead of fuming your rage and anger on others.

People hurt you and you tend to hurt others in return.. Life is like a cycle, whatever you’ve circulated, it will come around you sooner or later.These kind of things happen and yeah, it takes time to learn how to grow out of the pain others have inflicted on you. Same applies to others, they will have to take time to grow out of it. Try not to inflict pain onto others because if you do, it doesn’t go away just like that.. scars will be left behind and it wouldn’t be pretty.

Let’s learn how to be nice people. I know we are living in a cruel world and there are plenty of cruel and mean people out there. Truth is, people might be mean towards you but we shouldn’t pay them back with what they’ve done to us.. we have the tendency to be mean to those who are mean to us.. I know how it feels like but what good does it do to you? Seriously? The both of you will end up in an endless fight/ war.

Why do you choose the ugly path when all you can do is to simply be kind and nice to them and be hopeful that someday, they might be able to see the pretty sight of the ugly and dark dark world. Jesus taught me this and I’m still learning to be nice to people who are annoying and unkind toward me. You can choose to forgive and forget those who’d mistreated you. I know it’s not easy, it takes time.. and yeah, it doesn’t take a day or two, sometimes it might even take years for someone to have a Christ-like-attitude.

We are born to be sinners without us realising. We as babies, we started sinning when we were born into this world. You might ask ‘how so?’ Babies are such innocent creatures.. Let me enlighten you a little. You can try to imagine how much pain your mum had been through after she’d delivered you.. yet we as babies, we cried in the middle of the night just to wake our mummies up for milk, and yeah there’s more, we naturally learnt how to lie and blame others for things we’ve done even if we weren’t taught to do so. We are born to be sinners.. that’s a fact.

Well, Jesus died for us.. us.. as in sinners and he did what he could to save mankind from this cruel world. I guess, this should give us all the more reason to be kind to others. We might fail but at least we’ve tried.. I believe the more we try, the easier it gets to be a kind, sincere, nice, a non-judgmental and forgiving person. 🙂

My prayers go all out to all of you… whether you believe in Jesus or not i sincerely pray for you to be that kind of person I’ve just talked about. 🙂

John 3:13

“God sent his Son into the world. God did not send his Son to judge the world guilty. God sent his Son so that the world could be saved through his Son.

 

Just A Kiss Lady Antebellum

 

Lyin’ here with you so close to me
It’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I’ve never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I’m holding you in my arms
We don’t need to rush this
Let’s just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It’ll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It’s never felt so real, no it’s never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don’t want to say goodnight
I know it’s time to leave, but you’ll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, oh, let’s do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight